then again

I don’t know if it has something to do with my idle moments at home but I sure do feel so bum at home to the point that I think I’m ready to work.

Then again, it’s just the bum moments.

Right when I started my classless days (and before I found out officially that one of my professors gave me an incomplete grade), I had listed things I wanted to do before I start working, much of which are artsy stuff. I guess I was hoping to give my artistic side a chance.

Haha. I actually want to try sand art, shirt designs and henna tattoo. But mind you, I want to be the one who paints the tattoo and not the one to have it on.

And then there’s what others, my family most especially, wanted me to do. My dad has been bugging me for weeks to apply to grad school. It’s not that I don’t want it. I just feel it’s not yet time for that.

At the same time, my dad has been expressing extreme desire to force me to learn to drive. Again, it’s not that I don’t want it. All he does, however, is talk about it but never actually had the time for it. Kuya Jonell has of course long offered to teach me but my parents never liked the idea that someone else will be teaching me.

I have to say this. I have been bombarded with lines in relation to marriage, as if I was to get married before the year ends! Seriously now.

Then again, I feel so worthless lately, like I couldn’t do the things I suppose to do, as if my internal organs are not in the mood to function properly either.

And then again, I am not in my best state of mind I guess. Anyone care to join me for ice cream?