sabi ng subtitle ng Kdrama: how to do?

I just realized I have been eating more than I usually would. Although I do not fill myself up, I don't think I was that sort of hungry everytime I look for food.

I have a perfectly good idea how much money I would be spending just to put up our thesis so I definitely know that I have to control the money going in and out of my hands. But I can't help it.

As far as I can remember, the last time I felt this was about two years ago, when I felt the only way to ease my depresssion was to spend money on something which happened to be that Backstreet Boys concert in Manila.

Depression. Could it be?

It must have been that Wednesday when things were about to change. The day had opened with new possibilities, things I never imagined to come upon me. The day had provided me with enough answers to the why's of the people around me as another had also opened the door for what may be the realization of a childhood dream. Given the great things upon me, why would I still be depressed?

Probably my body had absorbed the implications of that Wednesday morning even if my mind was not yet able to comprehend. It was until that Friday morning that I truly realized what that Wednesday morning would allow and forbid me to do.

How I wish I could say it now.

I guess to forever hold my peace would actually kill me. But saying it out loud would also kill me, or someone else just the same. I've never felt so torn in my life.